Finally ......

It's been a long time I didn't blog. Dunno why suddenly the momentum is losing. Anyway, I have a good news to share. I finally managed to sell my car. You bet that I'm $$$$ richer? Nope! This car was not an investment like an asset. I made RM1000++ but I lose RM3000++. But the financial issue is not my concern at all. After all, I'm a happier man now after disposing the car to another man who has fallen in love with her. I just let her go and be united with the one she deserves. Ha! ha! No regret for me! I didn't even miss her since I loathe her (so bad ya me?).

Now I have to find new love. Would like to have a go with Iswara A/B or better car but the current global economic crisis really worries me. If things worsen, I might lose my job since tourism is most vulnerable to such unpleasant development. I just keep my fingers closed that life won't be gloomy next year.

Money is the Root of All Doubts

I have lotsa plans in my mind that I wanna achieve. Yet I have so many doubts that hinder me from taking action. Do it or not? That's the question I repeatedly ask myself. My latest craze is online business, given that money is the motivation for me to enjoy a more comfortable life. Been browsing thru websites on my lookout for a decent side-income avenue for the past two years. There are plenty of them but what I was flooded with was heap of doubts that I can do it. My main worry is, I will never get anything started forever becoz I keep looking for the best opportunities but the best opportunity might have slipped away in my obsession of finding one. Perhaps I should learn how to 'manage opportunities'. Time is fast catching up. I will reach my 30th annivesary in less than 4 years (meaning less than 1460 days!). It's a shame to count what I've achieved all this while if money is used as a benchmark for success. To say that I'm employed with four figure income is not good enough. There are young people out there who started from scratch and they are earning a hefty five to six figure income in 30 days. I only have myself to blame if I don't achieve any breakthrough in a year or two. The big question is .... what is it that I really wanna do ....

A Day without a Car

Car is a necessity to travel, much less to release stress through leisurely drive. Though I earned my driving license in 2003, I hardly drive because I didn't own a car. Being a student, I used to take a bus ride whenever I attend college and vice versa. I hate this monotonous experience, especially when I had to jostle with many foreign construction workers - all vying for a seat amid the excessively packed bus. This had been my way of life until I landed a job with my current employer. I had the luxury of riding in my sister in-law's kancil and were exempted from paying any fare for a return ride to and from Kolombong.

In 2007, my dream of driving my own car materialised. An old Toyota Corolla Deluxe was delivered by my brother and I was the proud owner of it until recently, when I had to abandon it due to numerous reasons that I had lamented in my previous posts. Yes, I'm now without a car and have to commute to workplace in my brother and sister in-law's car. On Saturday, I'll have to walk 1-2km to take a bus ride to attend my church service. This sounds like nothing but actually, there's a huge difference of having and not having a car. I miss the days I had a car - though I condemn it's annoying threats on my safety and comfort.

Here is a breaking news. I just learned that my car engine is overhauled again (in less than a year), meaning I can't sell it even for just RM2000. My ultimate decision is to chop the body and sell her as scrap metal while her parts can be sold as second hand parts.

How long will I have to do without a car? It's so inconvenient and I enjoy no freedom of travelling! I'm counting down the days when I will buy a replacement car. My heart throbs faster in anxious anticipation of my future car. Uhuk ....

Isk.. why so malang one

Why ah? There are days which seem so dull but there are times our days are so bright and colourful. I hate to be on the flip side but I enjoy as much as possible the happy days that I'm entitled to. I really miss those long gone moments. There are so little time to celebrate yet depressing moment engulfed me most of the time. People said life is like a roller coaster, there is up and down. There's no permanent up and no permanent down because there is still equilibrium in the universe.

Now, my life is so miserable. Day in day out, I'm going to work without my beloved car. I have just had a series of predicament due to my so-called 'overworked' personal computer. Not to mention the avalanche of work that I've to bear. Expecting things to get better? The big seminar that I'm organising in UMS gives me no room to be in comfort. What's more pathetic is the damn sore throat and cough that never let me rest in peace these few weeks. I wish I have had my lung operated to remove the phlegm once and for all.

Saddled with these uninvited experience, I only can pray that the happy days are approaching. A rewarding retreat at my sister's home in Tawau is awaiting me in October. I'm going to take my dad for a vacation, shopping and eating - momentarily letting go all these loathsome miseries. Well, that's not the end of the story. Nobody knows what's up next....

My Nightmare Continues ..

People would have laughed when they read about you. I don't even believe this is true. I thought I would have let you go successfully and that you will never appear in front of my eyes. Sight! I can't imagined that an infidel like you is so loyal to me. Do you still have feeling for me? This morning, when I was on my way to solemnize our divorce, you seemed desperately trying to change my mind. Never had I seen you so calm and cool in the past few weeks. Usually, you would exhibit your bad morning habit on my daily ride to work.

This morning you were so exceptional. You present yourself in your most youthful disposition, and nearly melted my heart. I tried very hard to resist this uninviting temptation. How could I fall in love again with someone who had overly stabbed me from behind? I would have been a fool if I was lured into your seemingly endearing charm. I'm astute enough to differentiate a diamond from a piece of lustrous glass.

Having sent you to the ward this morning, I was happy that you were discharged in the evening. To my surprise, my brother who took a ride on you almost involve in a mishap due to your old sickening temperament. Traumatised by your sabotaging behavior, we agreed that you are an unforgiven criminal. My brother who promised to be your temporaraly caretaker had refused to look after you on my behalf. There came my nightmare again. I had to drive you home again and in uncertainty about our future. Tell me, how long would I have to bear with you. I am now .... speechless .......

Goodbye Sweetheart

Why can't I just get over you? You came into my life out of the blue. Though we have long been together, since I was a kid, I never expected that you will be mine 20 years later. Our special relationship was merely an accident. I liked you because you were so humble and loveable. Though you are old, age was not my concern. We tried to become 'one' but over time, I realised that have never worked. You stumbled, losing your pride repeatedly. I was there to rescue you, like an angel that brought me there. Yet, you never have any affection for me. You tried to kill me many times, but I survived. I hate you, yet I still love you. I needed you and hoped that you will someday repent and give me a chance to reconcile with you. Unfortunately, you have let me down over and over again. You costs me lotsa money. You depleted all the savings I that I need for my future. You are my dream-killer. All hopes are gone now. I've made up my mind to divorce you. It's a tough decision but's it's final. I believe you and I are not meant to be together. I cherish all the fond memories we had together but bygone is bygone. Let all bitter sweet memories fade away. I'm going to leave you and go on without you. Who might know, I will meet with my new sweetheart very soon. Sayonara, my Toyota Corolla DX. Uhu .......

How Much is Your Networth?

Have you ever asked yourself this question? Do you know how much your networth means to you? Do you know that all you knowledge, skills, talents, experience, discipline and positive attitude determine how high is your networth? Do you borther to ask how much is your networth? Do you know that your possibility of being paid higher is in direct proportion to your networth? What are your specialties that you haven't discovered and developed? Do you know that your networth can be increased if you have the passion for it? Will you take action today to increase your networth? Don't you believe that your networth can eventually equate billion of dollars? How I wish I can show you how now....

The Time Mystery

How would you define time? Do you notice the presence of time only after you have missed some precious moment in your life? Everyone including the rich and the poor is equally endowed with 24 hours a day, do we realize that? Have you ever complained that you just don't have enough time in a day? Have you ever heard that 'you can lose all your money but not your time? Why would not time just wait for us but leave us behind without any mercy? Yet, why are there occasions wherein we have to kill the time as if we have nothing to do? Is there a secret formula for us to be on par with the speed of time? Does time listen to our need? Will we have more time if we deserve it? Do you agree that our life is measured against time? Do you realize that every second counts in our life? My list goes on and on but should I go on? Will I get the answers today, tomorrow, next year, in a decade or never? That's why I perceive time as a mystery ....